The iron was heated all of a sudden and crimps were instantly ironed out.
It was a good talk.
Finally i've got the answer to my doubts and wonders, though not completed (yet). It's sufficient, at least for now.
I'm glad that we've withstood the test and neither of us gave up halfway.
I hope we'll treasure it even more than before. =)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Don't Think. Just do.
It was a ridiculous day at work.
I thought i would be happy in view of the after-work activity.
In any case, i've always made it a point to start off each day with joy.
I've planned ahead for my day....breakfast at 11am, gym at 12.30pm, snack at 3pm so on and so forth.
However, it just took a phone call to turn my plan upside down.
Two months ago, i took over a portfolio from a colleague who was transferred out. Even before that, i knew i would hate it to the core and i've proven myself so right.
Despite of that, i tried, with all my might, to at least squeeze something good out of the dump. So that's about 5%?
With simple math, you would know how have i been doing for 95% of the time in this dump.
The phone call was from a colleague in another division, notifying me of a complaint they received with regards to this portfolio.
The complainer wasn't happy about the delay in response from the Board. If it was me, i wouldn't be too. Two years (!!!) fyi. Previously when i didn't receive a reply from HDB after eight months, i lodged a complain with the MP at a meet-the-resident session. Hmm now i know how would the HDB officer have felt then.
Anyway, now that i think back, i could have regarded the call like one of the 987 complaints i've gotten and chucked it aside. The number of complaints we receive in a day can be so irritating that my predecessor would simply hang up her phone. Of course it wasn't permissible.
I think i was too disturbed and it had went beyond my patience, so i decided to put a stop to the entire era of complaints.
Well, it all started from the root of the problem which was the backlog worth two years. Sigh, i know...sometimes i don't blame people for saying gahmen is forever slow.
Therefore, in order to stop people from complaining, we have to give them what they want.
After i've escalated the issue to LL, i got down to track the progress of my temp staff and drilled him like never before, down to specific instructions.
At last, i couldn't stand his slow-mo that i had to get my hands dirty i.e. to clear the dump.
In the end, i missed my gym regime and had lunch only at 4.30pm.
But i was determined and i managed to escape from work at 6.50pm as i've got a ktv date with Jac. I knew i would be uber bitter and turned the office upside down if i had to miss my ktv date because of the stupid dump.
Throughout the day, i was highly frustrated and felt uber unjustified.
For the fact that i had to clear the dump which others left behind. A utterly irresponsible and unethical act, i thought.
Jer asked if i have a choice to drop this entirely, i realised i don't. Sigh.
So no matter how i feel, work still has to be done. Unfortunately, by me.
I realised in order for me to move on, i had to change my mindset and stop looking back and keep harping on the unfair treatment.
But i also realised it's impossible coz it seriously has nothing positive to think about.
Last resort...Don't think. Just do!
咬紧牙根，勇往直前!!!!
I thought i would be happy in view of the after-work activity.
In any case, i've always made it a point to start off each day with joy.
I've planned ahead for my day....breakfast at 11am, gym at 12.30pm, snack at 3pm so on and so forth.
However, it just took a phone call to turn my plan upside down.
Two months ago, i took over a portfolio from a colleague who was transferred out. Even before that, i knew i would hate it to the core and i've proven myself so right.
Despite of that, i tried, with all my might, to at least squeeze something good out of the dump. So that's about 5%?
With simple math, you would know how have i been doing for 95% of the time in this dump.
The phone call was from a colleague in another division, notifying me of a complaint they received with regards to this portfolio.
The complainer wasn't happy about the delay in response from the Board. If it was me, i wouldn't be too. Two years (!!!) fyi. Previously when i didn't receive a reply from HDB after eight months, i lodged a complain with the MP at a meet-the-resident session. Hmm now i know how would the HDB officer have felt then.
Anyway, now that i think back, i could have regarded the call like one of the 987 complaints i've gotten and chucked it aside. The number of complaints we receive in a day can be so irritating that my predecessor would simply hang up her phone. Of course it wasn't permissible.
I think i was too disturbed and it had went beyond my patience, so i decided to put a stop to the entire era of complaints.
Well, it all started from the root of the problem which was the backlog worth two years. Sigh, i know...sometimes i don't blame people for saying gahmen is forever slow.
Therefore, in order to stop people from complaining, we have to give them what they want.
After i've escalated the issue to LL, i got down to track the progress of my temp staff and drilled him like never before, down to specific instructions.
At last, i couldn't stand his slow-mo that i had to get my hands dirty i.e. to clear the dump.
In the end, i missed my gym regime and had lunch only at 4.30pm.
But i was determined and i managed to escape from work at 6.50pm as i've got a ktv date with Jac. I knew i would be uber bitter and turned the office upside down if i had to miss my ktv date because of the stupid dump.
Throughout the day, i was highly frustrated and felt uber unjustified.
For the fact that i had to clear the dump which others left behind. A utterly irresponsible and unethical act, i thought.
Jer asked if i have a choice to drop this entirely, i realised i don't. Sigh.
So no matter how i feel, work still has to be done. Unfortunately, by me.
I realised in order for me to move on, i had to change my mindset and stop looking back and keep harping on the unfair treatment.
But i also realised it's impossible coz it seriously has nothing positive to think about.
Last resort...Don't think. Just do!
咬紧牙根，勇往直前!!!!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
T.I.R.E.D
Church camp was fabulous.
I told someone, it could be one of the best church camps for me. For once, i was hoping that it could last longer.
However, it was the most tiring of all.
Unfortunately, the tiredness persisted even till now.
It was almost 9pm when i left the Tourism Court.
Very dark outside. So dark that i could hardly recognize the person less than 200 metres away.
I dragged my worn out body to the train station, recalling what went on earlier in the day.
But i realized it would only make me even more draining. So i continued walking, with an empty mind.
I wonder what's the situation now. Or why has it transformed into what it is today? I didn't remember my life in Tourism Court can be this miserable. Not even when i had a difficult boss.
The misery is unexplainable.
Why, why like that?
When i thought i lost my quick fix of comfort at work, i'm glad that i wasn't left alone.
Who says that physical presence is crucial in a relationship? (Note: definition of relationship - connection between people)
It's just heartwarming to have a companion when i have to stay back at work.
Even if it's virtual.
Even if he is always 1 hour ahead of me.
But i know he is there.
That is why i love Jer so much. =)
I told someone, it could be one of the best church camps for me. For once, i was hoping that it could last longer.
However, it was the most tiring of all.
Unfortunately, the tiredness persisted even till now.
It was almost 9pm when i left the Tourism Court.
Very dark outside. So dark that i could hardly recognize the person less than 200 metres away.
I dragged my worn out body to the train station, recalling what went on earlier in the day.
But i realized it would only make me even more draining. So i continued walking, with an empty mind.
I wonder what's the situation now. Or why has it transformed into what it is today? I didn't remember my life in Tourism Court can be this miserable. Not even when i had a difficult boss.
The misery is unexplainable.
Why, why like that?
When i thought i lost my quick fix of comfort at work, i'm glad that i wasn't left alone.
Who says that physical presence is crucial in a relationship? (Note: definition of relationship - connection between people)
It's just heartwarming to have a companion when i have to stay back at work.
Even if it's virtual.
Even if he is always 1 hour ahead of me.
But i know he is there.
That is why i love Jer so much. =)
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
我真的受伤了
Living in Grace is to love first, judge later - Persi had to remind me today.
I didn't know it was so difficult, til i have to do it literally.
It's exceptionally tough when the person has failed you first.
Yet you have to look beyond/away from that, and to pour out your greatest love to the person.
My heart wrung when the truth was finally uncovered.
Tears fell uncontrollably.
Anger.
Disappointment.
Foolishness.
Betrayal.
I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the words appearing line by line on my laptop screen.
The trust that was built over the years came crashing down instantly.
It was painful.
I could have dumped everything and wilfully do the "Look, you failed me first and now you are expecting my help? Get lost!" thingy.
I didn't, as i know it would only make me feel worse if i do.
At least not for a person who is so close to my heart.
And perhaps that is also the reason that my heart is so painful.
My head is telling me that the current issue is more important, my emotions can be dealt with later.
But it's so much harder than i thought.
The price of being the receiver of God's grace.
I didn't know it was so difficult, til i have to do it literally.
It's exceptionally tough when the person has failed you first.
Yet you have to look beyond/away from that, and to pour out your greatest love to the person.
My heart wrung when the truth was finally uncovered.
Tears fell uncontrollably.
Anger.
Disappointment.
Foolishness.
Betrayal.
I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the words appearing line by line on my laptop screen.
The trust that was built over the years came crashing down instantly.
It was painful.
I could have dumped everything and wilfully do the "Look, you failed me first and now you are expecting my help? Get lost!" thingy.
I didn't, as i know it would only make me feel worse if i do.
At least not for a person who is so close to my heart.
And perhaps that is also the reason that my heart is so painful.
My head is telling me that the current issue is more important, my emotions can be dealt with later.
But it's so much harder than i thought.
The price of being the receiver of God's grace.
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