CMI Lecturers + Crystal Jade Korean

At the end of MM lecture last night, i concluded that this year would most likely be ji-gei-gu-ji-gei.
Really not say i want to say, i was really not at all impressed with all the lecturers for my 3 remaining modules.
ISORG was completed between July to September and he is the first lecturer i've come across who talks with his mouth closed.
He could still tell the class "my students used to tell me that i mumble when i talk".
HELLO!!! Your students were already so frank with you loh! You thought they were kidding or what?!
And i think he has a skill of 催眠术. Half the class could just doze off even at the first half of the lecture.
HRM was fine. He was loud and clear but he's not very good at structuring his lecture.
Most of the time, i didn't quite understand what he's talking about. Cham ah...
MM was a causasian. Actually he's not bad but i wish he could stop practising his soliloquy in lecture.
I mean i could understand if he is shy and introverted but i wish he could be LESS of those when he's teaching.
He talked to himself so much that i simply switched off during his explanation.
Cham ah....

I'm glad that the weekend is approaching again. I mean who don't? =p
SPians...oh errm...techinically SP went into history since 1 Sep when it merged with the rest of the Planners. So we are named as the Planners as a whole.
Boss was gone too. =(
I managed to bid him farewell before i left for Seoul.
I did up a video for him too. Can cry kind. But he didn't lah. Hah.
He wrote a testimony for me and i cried. I didn't know he likes me that much.
I miss him. *sob*
Ok coming back...
SPians [i prefer calling this group of us that] went for lunch at Crystal Jade Ginseng Chicken and BBQ (Korean), the one at Takashimaya [another branch is at Centrepoint].
Oh my...it just rekindled my precious moments in Seoul.
The food, the layout...brought back so much lovely memories.


And we celebrated Evan and Roy's birthday at tea time.

Their birthdays are a decade plus 1 day apart.

I treasure these moments with the SPians.

It won't be the same a month from now when half of the team is gone.

Random Updates

It seems that the period of uncertainty and mad rush is over and my life has kinda stabilised now.
The new curriculum year has just started.
Oh hmm...it started in July actually [with 1 module] but i wasn't really paying attention as i was busy coping with the post-exam backlog.
Oh btw, i passed my exams. All 3 papers. Woohoo!
It means i'm officially in my final year, with 3 remaining modules to clear.
After brain-cracking and logic-reasoning of the modules i should take, i've finally decided on Information System of Organisation, Human Resource Management and Management Mathematics.
2 qualitative and 1 quantitative - quite a good mix.

With the confirmation of modules for the new curriculum year, my weekly schedule was more or less fixed.
Monday - Aqua Aerobics
Tuesday - HRM
Wednesday - Sports Club
Thursday - MM
Friday - Cell Group
Saturday - Rest
Sunday - Church Service
All these are on top of the 44 working hours at the Tourism Court.
Therefore, Saturdays have become very important for me.
A typical one will be homecooked lunch at 1pm as i was unconscious any time before that [hah], watch the Jap serial showing on Channel 8, continue with a Korean dvd-serial, all the way till about 8 in the evening when i'll have the packed dinner brought home by Mummy. After that we'll watch the Taiwanese variety shows on Channel U together till about 11 before i wash up and turn in.
It a luxury i tell you!
I love my Saturdays! =)
But now with BB around, i'm not sure it will still be the same.
Mummy and i have managed to persuade him to come over to stay over a longer weekend, in preparation for his 'O' levels.
If not, it's just hard to trust him that he's really revising.

I've finally uploaded the 700 pics i took during my Seoul trip.
In the midst of my journalling now. Still at Day 3 only can.
Be patient and stay tune k!

I've not recovered with the withdrawal syndrome after the trip.
Group gatherings can no longer excites me.
In fact, i feel a bit awkward in gatherings.
It's like i have to behave in a way people expect Bonny to behave.
Forever yakking.
Forever laughing.
Forever being a clown.
If not, Bonny will be labelled as "not ok".
Ya lah ya lah. I'm not ok so can you just leave me alone?

Reluctant Return

Yes i'm back.
In fact since last Monday.
For once i could identify with people who could be so determined to migrate/relocate.
Coz for once i had such a fancy thought.
While waiting to board the plane from Incheon (Seoul) Airport, i was so tempted to call Mum and say that i'm not coming back.
If i had just one valid reason to stay in Seoul, i might really do that.
Not exactly that i love the city that much or i dislike my life here at home that much.
I just detested the thought of returning to reality.
I was whining within myself and was hoping that the flight could be cancelled due to whatever cause or they forgot to include my name on the flight home or...or......
When i realised it was only imaginary , i teared when the plane finally took off from Incheon Airport.
Throughout the flight home, i just stared blankly into the air, draggingly letting the reality sank in.

"Expectations" have been causing me to run out of breathe.
To a point where i live each day with the purpose to fulfill people's expectation of me.
Seriously, meeting others' expectations is not rare.
It could also be one of the reasons why this earth is still spinning.
I didn't perceive it to be negative either.
But there must be an objective.
Whenever my vision for the objective was blurred, it was as though the oxygen supply was disconnected.
"Bonny can you do this?"
"Bonny can you do that?"
"Bonny you are best in this!"
But what about Bonny?
Doesn't i have the right to receive?
Over time, my priviledge as a recipient seemed to have withdrawn.
No doubt, it's more blessed to give than to receive.
And yes, from the heavenly perspective, i've been educated that i should not expect something in return just because i have given.
But c'mon, i'm still on earth.
All i wish is to receive enough to keep me going.
Undeniably the measurement of "enough" is subjective.
I could never feel enough. This is for me to decide.
Maybe it's time to stop taking Bonny for granted.
Maybe it's time to stop thinking that Bonny can function alone in all circumstances.
Maybe it's time to even love Bonny and stop assuming that others will do it?
I know i'm whiny.
I know i'm immature.
I know i'm emo.
Just allow me to whine in my personal space coz if not, i think i'll be the first to die of discouragement.
I am going to let this be the last time.
After tonight's tears, i am going to pick myself up and move on by the power of God.

Just when i thought i could experience some warmth and pacify myself that coming home is good, i didn't see a single familiar face at the arrival gate.
They didn't even know when i was coming home.
Or maybe they just didn't care.

Seoul Coverage

ANNYEONGHASEYO!!!!

Bonny is right here in Seoul.

Will be back with more updates...

~ Bonny Chong reporting live from
Seoul, Korea.